In this post I’ll be talking about how I started my K-pop journey, became a BTS army & how it affected my life.
Warning! It’s going to be a long post!
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Before getting into the world of kpop, I didn’t had any particular taste in music I would only listen to Hindi songs that i used to hear often on TV & bunch of English songs that my elder cousins used to listen. Justin Bieber was literally the only singer I knew well about.
The biggest obstacle in my K-pop journey was the fact that I got a phone only in 2019 when I was 15. I couldn’t discover anything before it, basically I missed so much fun. When I finally got a phone in 2019, I soon discovered K-dramas & C-dramas coz it was hot topics in India, my first K-drama was “Her Private Life” on Viki, I loved every bit of it and after that I became a K-drama addict.
The thing is I’m not much of a discovering person, so I still had no idea about K-pop. Then one day while scrolling through social media. I bumped into one of the BLACKPINK’s song “Kill this love”.
It was something I had never experienced, I was totally unaware of this concept. I looked it up on YouTube and watched their MV, I fell in love with it. The video lyrics & girls all were DOPE, soon after I listened to their other songs & all of them were cool. It made me sing even though I didn’t know what does that means.
I soon caught up with other contents, BLACKPINK’s house videos, them in different shows, their IG updates & anything I could get my hands on. I really loved BLACKPINK and their songs but I never connected to them or blinks the way I did with BTS, BLACKPINK was a nice & lovely group for me but BTS & army felt more like a family.
As I said earlier I’m not much of a discovering person, I only knew about BTS until it was 2020, everything was starting to be fine after an anguish & I was trying to get my life together then COVID-19 happened. Right when I made my mind to study hard & be attentive my country went in a lockdown.
I did dreamed of having a long break where I’ll only use my phone, eat & watch TV. But now, it happened that way I wasn’t happy.
On one sunny day I randomly looked up on Google about BTS, the person who caught my eyes first was the “World Wide Handsome Jin”! To be honest, I couldn’t differentiate the members at first. To me, most of them really looked alike. I couldn’t even remember their names at first. But I had this feeling that I wanted to know more about them!
The first M/V that I watched was “Blood Sweat & Tears”. The lines were catchy & the whole M/V was super cool & mysterious, it gives off a classy yet curious vibe. I watched a few more videos later. The one with all the groovy vibes written in deep & enchanting lyrics will go to the song “Bulletproof Eternal” & “Life Goes On” especially for encouragement & strength.
I finally became an ARMY after getting to know them more than their music videos. Seeing their wholesome love for their fandom, them laughing & loving each other, having each other’s back even in a difficult period, BTS became so many people’s hope. For the first time of my life, I felt connected to someone. I couldn’t stop watching their other contents, their every word was meaningful & beautiful, they are so down to earth, humorous & everything about them was charming, it was like a total different world for me as I got to know them more. I felt attached to the point they became an important part of my life.
As I was late in being a part of the fandom, I had so much to catch up with. My everyday went by watching Run BTS episodes, interviews, their random videos or playing BTS world. From not having a single presence to them being a main character of my life, it went pretty fast!
Year 2020 would’ve been the worst year of my life, I don’t have many friends & had no inspiration in the only activity that interests me i.e. drawing, I was so low, kept getting lazy & feeling dull. That’s when they came to sparkle my life, it was like I got a muse, I loved drawing them even if it wasn’t so good but it was the best I’ve ever done. I was so happy of becoming an ARMY. Being a K-pop fan takes you to a whole new world, a fantastic place you’ve never been.
I was so grateful and happy I remember when ‘Dynamite’ was released all I could think was: OMG I got to experience BTS new song now I won’t have any regrets if I die now đ
Then again 2021 was going awful for me, exams getting postponed, incomplete syllabus & lockdown again due to the 2nd wave of COVID-19, I was so stressed to the point I felt hopeless, my friends were literally the only physical existence that made me feel happy but I couldn’t meet them. Anxiety was eating me up from inside and that’s when BTS decided to do “Bang Bang Con”
It was that for me, the turning point, after spending three successful sad months it changed, on 17 April 2021, that was the time I felt most attached with them. I felt so close with the Bangtan boys while watching Bang Bang Von, almost felt like I’m in concert, I’ve never been to any so I don’t know how it feels,
When they looked in camera I felt they were looking through my soul, I smiled every time and get myself cheered with the present ARMY!
Their never-ending ‘Thanks’ and ‘I love you’, them talking about themselves, and how happy they are, ARMY’s beautiful sea and their beautiful faces, I sometimes wanted to cry. BTS danced their songs many times and they played all of my favorites in the concert. And, I didn’t know their parents attends their concert too!
I am so thankful to BTS for everything, for making my day better, for loving me, for healing me, for existing. I’ve never watched their online concert before, it was a very big moment for me!
So many things changed for me, everything has been positive. I met new amazing peoples & started this activity, my exams got cancelled & I was finally free to focus on myself!
I believe in miracles now, coz what happened to me can’t be a coincidence. They were a gift to me from God right when I needed them the most. I can’t imagine how my life would’ve been without them! I wasn’t always the person I am right now, BTS has a huge part in my personality change, the way I think and respond to things, being positive & loving myself, everything.
~Zeba, a BTS’s ARMY
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About the writer:
I’m Zeba
From India đŽđł
I like BTS and K-dramas. My favorite song is “We are bulletproof eternal”.
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