In this post I’ll be talking about how I started my K-pop journey, became a BTS army & how it affected my life.
Warning! It’s going to be a long post!
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Before getting into the world of kpop, I didn’t had any particular taste in music I would only listen to Hindi songs that i used to hear often on TV & bunch of English songs that my elder cousins used to listen. Justin Bieber was literally the only singer I knew well about.
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The biggest obstacle in my K-pop journey was the fact that I got a phone only in 2019 when I was 15. I couldn’t discover anything before it, basically I missed so much fun. When I finally got a phone in 2019, I soon discovered K-dramas & C-dramas coz it was hot topics in India, my first K-drama was “Her Private Life” on Viki, I loved every bit of it and after that I became a K-drama addict.
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The thing is I’m not much of a discovering person, so I still had no idea about K-pop. Then one day while scrolling through social media. I bumped into one of the BLACKPINK’s song “Kill this love”.
It was something I had never experienced, I was totally unaware of this concept. I looked it up on YouTube and watched their MV, I fell in love with it. The video lyrics & girls all were DOPE, soon after I listened to their other songs & all of them were cool. It made me sing even though I didn’t know what does that means.
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I soon caught up with other contents, BLACKPINK’s house videos, them in different shows, their IG updates & anything I could get my hands on. I really loved BLACKPINK and their songs but I never connected to them or blinks the way I did with BTS, BLACKPINK was a nice & lovely group for me but BTS & army felt more like a family.
As I said earlier I’m not much of a discovering person, I only knew about BTS until it was 2020, everything was starting to be fine after an anguish & I was trying to get my life together then COVID-19 happened. Right when I made my mind to study hard & be attentive my country went in a lockdown.
I did dreamed of having a long break where I’ll only use my phone, eat & watch TV. But now, it happened that way I wasn’t happy.
On one sunny day I randomly looked up on Google about BTS, the person who caught my eyes first was the “World Wide Handsome Jin”! To be honest, I couldn’t differentiate the members at first. To me, most of them really looked alike. I couldn’t even remember their names at first. But I had this feeling that I wanted to know more about them!
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The first M/V that I watched was “Blood Sweat & Tears”. The lines were catchy & the whole M/V was super cool & mysterious, it gives off a classy yet curious vibe. I watched a few more videos later. The one with all the groovy vibes written in deep & enchanting lyrics will go to the song “Bulletproof Eternal” & “Life Goes On” especially for encouragement & strength.
I finally became an ARMY after getting to know them more than their music videos. Seeing their wholesome love for their fandom, them laughing & loving each other, having each other’s back even in a difficult period, BTS became so many people’s hope. For the first time of my life, I felt connected to someone. I couldn’t stop watching their other contents, their every word was meaningful & beautiful, they are so down to earth, humorous & everything about them was charming, it was like a total different world for me as I got to know them more. I felt attached to the point they became an important part of my life.
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As I was late in being a part of the fandom, I had so much to catch up with. My everyday went by watching Run BTS episodes, interviews, their random videos or playing BTS world. From not having a single presence to them being a main character of my life, it went pretty fast!
Year 2020 would’ve been the worst year of my life, I don’t have many friends & had no inspiration in the only activity that interests me i.e. drawing, I was so low, kept getting lazy & feeling dull. That’s when they came to sparkle my life, it was like I got a muse, I loved drawing them even if it wasn’t so good but it was the best I’ve ever done. I was so happy of becoming an ARMY. Being a K-pop fan takes you to a whole new world, a fantastic place you’ve never been.
I was so grateful and happy I remember when ‘Dynamite’ was released all I could think was: OMG I got to experience BTS new song now I won’t have any regrets if I die now 😂
Then again 2021 was going awful for me, exams getting postponed, incomplete syllabus & lockdown again due to the 2nd wave of COVID-19, I was so stressed to the point I felt hopeless, my friends were literally the only physical existence that made me feel happy but I couldn’t meet them. Anxiety was eating me up from inside and that’s when BTS decided to do “Bang Bang Con”
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It was that for me, the turning point, after spending three successful sad months it changed, on 17 April 2021, that was the time I felt most attached with them. I felt so close with the Bangtan boys while watching Bang Bang Von, almost felt like I’m in concert, I’ve never been to any so I don’t know how it feels,
When they looked in camera I felt they were looking through my soul, I smiled every time and get myself cheered with the present ARMY!
Their never-ending ‘Thanks’ and ‘I love you’, them talking about themselves, and how happy they are, ARMY’s beautiful sea and their beautiful faces, I sometimes wanted to cry. BTS danced their songs many times and they played all of my favorites in the concert. And, I didn’t know their parents attends their concert too!
I am so thankful to BTS for everything, for making my day better, for loving me, for healing me, for existing. I’ve never watched their online concert before, it was a very big moment for me!
So many things changed for me, everything has been positive. I met new amazing peoples & started this activity, my exams got cancelled & I was finally free to focus on myself!
I believe in miracles now, coz what happened to me can’t be a coincidence. They were a gift to me from God right when I needed them the most. I can’t imagine how my life would’ve been without them! I wasn’t always the person I am right now, BTS has a huge part in my personality change, the way I think and respond to things, being positive & loving myself, everything.
~Zeba, a BTS’s ARMY
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About the writer:
I’m Zeba
From India 🇮🇳
I like BTS and K-dramas. My favorite song is “We are bulletproof eternal”.
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